I have baby fever. I’ve been saying it for weeks. I’m a planner and I’d like to plan for my children to be a certain number of years apart in age. I’d like to plan to avoid being pregnant in the middle of a Columbia summer. I’d like to plan lots and lots of things.
But I learned with Hudson that I can’t plan everything and I didn’t even try to plan everything. And yes, just like with a well-planned wedding day, unexpected things came up that we hadn’t planned. But here we are almost 15 months later enjoying our very happy little boy every second of every day.
And then I wonder, “Do I want to rock this boat? Things are going so well.”
But I also know that I want Hudson to have a sibling or siblings if the Lord blesses us with them. But I will make an extra effort to treasure these very special moments we’re having right now. And not start wishing for something more than what we have right now.
When I was thinking about it, I realized the things that I would worry about if another baby Carroll came into our lives.
1. Sleep. Hudson ended up being a great sleeper, but I don’t really look forward to going through the sleep training process again.
2. Schedules. I have worked so hard to develop a great schedule of activities and fun for Hudson and for me in our daily routine together. I don’t know that I would be patient enough to wait 6 weeks before getting back in to Junior League, choir, exercising, and church.
3. Sharing my time with another baby. I mean this in the best way. Or I’m trying to. I love my time with Hudson and don’t know how I will do when the time comes for me to balance the time between him and his sibling. My dad has told me that he wondered how it would be to love two babies equally right before my brother was born, but he did. And my parents have never shown an ounce of favoritism.
4. Travel. We’re almost at the point where we can think about bringing Hudson with us on trips. Not all trips, but some trips, would be appropriate for him. If we have another infant in our house, we would have to prolong that or leave the little one with his or her grandparents.
5. Money. The inevitable. I want to provide for our family and give them so many long-term gifts. I don’t think I need to explain how expensive babies are, but just how expensive adult children can be is enough to make me want to stop spending my “fun money” and putting it in the bank. {Don’t get too excited, TC!}
So I know that I just need to pray and know that God is going to do what is best for our family and He will continue to bless us in was we may not even realize. But I will enjoy the wonderful things about our family at this moment and stop looking for the next big milestone.
But it is so nice to think about the next sweet baby Carroll to hold and love.










