I’ve felt really anxious the last couple of days. I can’t put my finger on the reason and while not totally foreign, I don’t feel this way very often. It’s unsettling and distracting.
When I stopped to think about why I felt this restless anxiety, I wasn’t really able to come up with anything. My mind is not flooded with thoughts at all. I don’t feel overwhelmed. In fact, I feel a little bit bored.
I hate using the word “bored” because I feel like the word “ungrateful” is associated with it. And that’s not really it at all. I have plenty to do. I have plenty of things to cross off my list. I have projects that I am working on that are exciting to me. It may be that I have just had some bad days at “work.”
Hudson and I spent the majority of the day yesterday butting heads. Yes, right after I praised him for communicating so well and being agreeable. He spent more time in time out yesterday than he spent out of it. He colored on the walls. He said “shut up” at school. He screamed every time I fed Hayes. There was just a lot of noise.
I called my girl friend and scheduled a girls night for this week just so I could have a couple of hours out of the house with a friend. And a glass of wine.
Taking a blogging break was my plan, but when I realized how much I was missing by not blogging, I realized I needed to just write. I don’t have anything overly exciting to write about right now, but blogging is such a great release for me. No matter what I write about, I feel better after I’ve written.
I know that in a couple of days I won’t feel so anxious and we’ll be back to regularly scheduled programming.
In the mean time, I’m distracting myself with episodes of Parenthood on Netflix. Every single episode puts a big lump in my throat, but I just love it.
p.s. I joked with my mom this morning that I had the blues because I’m missing Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele. Wink wink.
p.p.s. My dear friend, Crist, just pointed out the very obvious to me that a good bit of prayer time would do me some good. And she is so right.
Parenthood (the show, not the act of parenting children- I’m not there yet 😉 ) is my go-to if I need a good cathartic cry. Things WILL get better!
Ugh, I’m sorry you had a frustrating couple of days! I hope Parenthood is a good distraction & I’m so glad you’re watching it!
I went through a bit of withdrawal when I was done with the books too…
I also had to ask my friend if she wanted to get together some night this week for coffee. I think we are hitting the terrible twos early (she’s almost 20 months). She’s not bad, she just is testing the limits a lot right now and she is a climber – the bathroom counters (she uses the toilet), the table behind the couch so she can stand in the window, pretty much everything. So I feel like I’m telling her no all day long (probably because I am). So, yay for girl nights!! 🙂 Hope you have a good day!
I know you know this–but praying really helps. When I feel anxious, I try to take as much quiet time as I can and ask God to take away my anxiety, and fill that space up with something fulfilling. Anxiety can be such devil’s work–and I hate that feeling! I’ll pray about it for you too. From reading your blog, you write often about the seasons of life. Just try to remember this is a tough one, and soon it will pass. Lots of love coming your way! xo
Sorry you’re having a rough time, I know that feeling with an almost 5 yr old boy and a three yr old boy! And tell me about the Christian Grey withdrawal! I just finished all three books and I’m seriously considering starting them again just so I can have a little more Mr. Grey in my life 😉 Ha!
I think what you’re feeling is pretty normal for a stay-at-home-Mom. There are ups and there are downs and there are just those “blah” moments. Your ability to know that will change is great and will hopefully assist in this “moment” passing soon.
I totally get this way, too! You are not alone!! A good girls night is always helpful to me as well 🙂 I’m REALLY wanting to watch Parenthood! Are all the seasons/episodes on Netflix now?
I’m sorry you are having a rough time, I can relate to that if not the reason why. I hope you “write” through it soon!
Haha, I just said to my husband that I was feeling blue because I was missing Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele too… they felt like ‘friends’ while I was reading. In all seriousness though, I hope you are feeling better soon;) Glad you are continuing to write!
you aren’t alone! we had a few challenging days but glad they are behind us as well. A little girl time to re charge is good for everyone!
I’m glad you’re making a plan to get out of the house a bit. Sometimes a change of pace and some new scenery really helps me when I’m feeling anxious. So does a glass of wine! 😉
I’m going for a run tonight and a pedicure tomorrow and that always helps me too.
Best,
Colleen @ Meet the Sullivans
I can totally relate to this post. I’m so glad you posted it! I was thinking about picking up “the book” and now that I read this, I’m going to pick it up tonight 🙂 Enjoy your girl time and wine!
Your post couldn’t have come at a better time. My 3rd year old said stupid at school yesterday (I’m pretty sure a word he picked up at school) and the teacher made me feel the worst parent ever. Thanks for keeping it real and have a glass of wine for me at your girls night:)
Gosh, I can totally relate to this post! Somedays I feel like all I do is scold or put Hudson in timeout but then other days he is just an angel.
Every mom needs a night out!
good for you writing it out and scheduling a girl’s night out. enjoy Parenthood while you keep putting one foot in front of the other through this time. hugs xoxo
I hate those anxious days. My cure? We get out and do more things during the day, and I throw the baby in my husband’s arms as soon as he walks in the door. Then after a few days, the world rights itself and I’m back to feeling good. Good for you to schedule a night out for yourself. Pedicures are also a lifesaver– prettiness + a massage in one!
Girl – I’m telling you it’s those books! I’ve been feeling the EXACT same way! It actually makes me feel better to read that I’m not alone. I know it will pass, but I have been feeling so anxious and ungrateful too. You read my mind and wrote it in a blog post.
I HAD THE SAME DAY YESTERDAY AND TODAY…… I will not write down everything my child has done in the past two days bc I will cry and it would take too long! I will say this- I am so tired of being told what she does wrong eveywhere we go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW , I KNOW… she hits…….. I KNOW…. I feel like every direction I turn my wild angel is being told a negative and not a positive. YES- she is WILD and has SOOOOOO much energy it burst out of her……. I am TRYING my best to teach her, but some days are just that.. BAD DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, I feel like this so often! Blogging and praying helps me too! It’s hard being a mamma. I sometimes just feel down and a little bored. There isn’t much time for a true break, always tired and always butting heads with someone! The only way I get through is relying on God and that’s not easy!!
I hate it when I feel that way. Don’t feel bad about Hudson. It seems like I go through phases like that with my son, and then he’ll be so good I forget what a stinker he can be. I’ve heard that when they try us and constantly argue they are learning and growing. At this point my four year old should’ve learned and grown as much as a 40 year old. 😉
How GOOD is Parenthood? I have watched every single episode and cry 99% of the time. Love that show! It is so real!!! Chin up, something exciting must be around the corner. (I sound like a fortune cookie)
I know just what you mean! This week I told my hubby I felt bored, even though my to-do list is a mile long! What the heck? I think it means I need to shake things up. A girls night is a good idea . (So is wine.)
I’m missing me some Christian and Ana too!!! WHEW…what a great series. I read all 3 in a week! Wonder who they will choose for the lead roles in the movie? I can’t help but think of Rob Pattinson b/c I loved Twilight too! Bradley Cooper would be “easy on the eyes”! Hang in there…all moms, especially SAHM moms get down. Trust me, I know…I have 5 kiddos
hoping things get back to ‘regularly scheduled programming’ soon 🙂 Life throws us some not so fun curve balls sometimes, doesn’t it? Have a wonderful day! 🙂
I’ve had a problem with anxiousness this past week, too, which is very unlike me. I’ve tried to spend some more time with God and it’s helped. It’s like this bit of anxiousness is a reminder that I need to prioritize better and spend time with Him regularly, each day. I feel all better now and hope you do, too! 🙂
I hope you find peace soon, Erin. I feel the same way sometimes and just can’t stop myself. Awful feeling, isn’t it? Writing helps me, too. We’ll get through it. 🙂 Thanks for sharing and I hope you have a GREAT weekend!
Sorry friend! Sounds like your week got better – I just had to comment that I’m reading the third book very very slow because I’m dreading finishing them and having Christian Grey withdrawals too!
Erin, i have been thinking about this post the last few days because i have been feeling the exact same way. Honestly, i really think there is a syndrome called the “50 shades…blues”. I read all the books in six days last week and now i am just in a funk.