1. There are still times when I cannot feel the skin around my c-section scar. I’m so sorry if that’s TMI, but it’s the truth.
2. Despite the confession in #1, I am still oh-so-grateful that Hayes was born via c-section.
3. I still need to lose about 20 pounds. It’s a combination of Hayes pregnancy and Hudson pregnancy weight. Please do not say in the comments “you don’t need to lose weight” just to make me feel better. Yes, I do. It would make me feel so much better to finally get that weight off. I have chosen not to post the most unflattering pictures of myself because it’s my blog and why would I post unflattering pictures of myself? Anyway, the weight needs to take a hike.
4. Who decides to lose 20 pounds right before Christmas? Shouldn’t I wait until after Christmas? You’d think. But, no, I’m ready.
5. The last four confessions aren’t really helping me to focus on what I’m grateful for right now. Sorry, Ann Voskamp. I’m working on it, I really am.
6. Today, I am grateful for a husband who is willing to drive to Louisiana late at night so the boys can sleep most of the way!
7. My Erin Condren iPhone case arrived yesterday and I love it. It was a gift from the wonderful Nina and I am so excited to have it!
8. I am a book swap failure. I have all of the addresses and I even purchased the books for the kids I’m sending books to. I just haven’t mailed the letters or the book. It will get done eventually!
9. TC has been out of town for the past three days. It is so hard when he’s not here! My patience is about gone and I took time every night to pray that I would be kind and patient no matter how much I had been pushed to my limit. It’s as if Hudson was pushing me just because TC was gone. Anyway, I did it and I can’t wait for him to get home tonight!
10. I just read #4… please understand that I do not plan to lose 20 pounds by Christmas. Just wanted to make that clear.
11. I am straight up obsessed with my new Keurig. They make it way too easy to make a cup of coffee. And it’s a good cup of coffee. I love the new Starbucks K-cups in Breakfast Blend.
12. My oldest friend in the world is getting married this weekend. This officially makes us grown-ups.
13. Which takes more effort? “Being the bigger person” or holding a grudge? Neither are easy.
14. I am running the air conditioner in my house today. Hello, South Carolina? It’s December. Get it together.
15. I only want one thing for Christmas. I’m not very easy to buy for this year.
16. Instead of watching Christmas movies this week, all I wanted to watch was the old 90210 episode that was a spoof on It’s A Wonderful Life. This makes me weird.
I’m with you on #3&4…. My husband is going to “help” me along & be a workout buddy (he has some baby weight to lose too).
#11- we ordered the Keurig platinum the other day and are anxiously waiting its arrival! And a 60- count variety pack. So excited!
This weather has GOT to go! I am about 90% sure it’s the reason I’ve been sick. A week ago, there was frost on the ground, and this week we have to use the AC? No wonder I’m a mess!
Have a great Wednesday friend!
I feel ya on the c-section scar 🙁 and I live in GA and we had to turn our air on yesterday as well! Hoping the rain brings it back to normal December weather 🙂 Happy Wednesday and glad ur hubs will be back home, I know it stinks doing it solo!!! It is rough!!!
Oh girl, I hear you on the baby weight. After two c-sections I find it’s less a matter of weight loss and more a matter of just serious necessary toning. Regardless, this is officially the worst time of year to try and tackle such an endeavor. Oh another note, I’ll say an extra prayer that you can be a patient mama while TC is gone. When my husband travels I literally live on coffee and wine. Just sayin 😉
Nothing weird about 90210! I hold every episode near and dear to my heart!
Best.Post.Ever. Loved it!!! 🙂
I hear you on #s 3 and 4. I swore all that I’d be back to normal by Christmas…umm, doubtful.
Good luck!
I’m trying to lose weight by Christmas too. All of my girlfriends from high school have decided to get together after the holidays and that is pushing me to lose what I can before then. Lots of them are still skinny (skinnier than high school) and it makes me mad. I just don’t have their genes. Love ya girl!
I was at USC for grad school (I’m from NJ and went to undergrad in Baltimore) and I remember my first December I was taking finals and it was like 80 degrees haha I was like “this is not what winter finals are supposed to feel like!” I’m not in the area anymore but #14 took me right back!
My “feeling” around my c-section scar just started coming back some in the last month or so. It is also still kind of sore feeling and stings at times. But yes, I am ooooh so thankful for a c-section. Emmeline was 9lbs 11 ounces! Pushing for 3 hours with no progress = the worst thing that ever happened to me. I begged and pleaded for them to cut that little girl out!!! 😉
You’re not the only one who decided December was a good time to try to lose weight. So far, though, I’ve just been tempted by all the yummy Christmas cookies and candies. Good luck! You can do it 🙂
I’m anxious to get rid of my last pounds of baby weight, too, but I think I’m going to wait until after Christmas to really focus hard on it… too much on my plate (pun intended!) right now 🙂
Very impressed with your weight loss efforts this time of year! Just maintaining my weight through the holidays would be good enough for me 🙂
I love love love this post because I can relate so much. I lost 20 pounds between Thanksgiving and Valentines Day last year and I felt amazing. I lost 10 more throughout 2011. Now I have the last 20 to lose too:) Having babies, especially that second one, does something to our bodies. Good luck to you as you get the last 20 off. I know you’ll do it. I just said a prayer for you for today while TC is gone. It is SO HARD to be alone with two little ones.
I can’t feel my skin around my scar either! It’s so weird. Some feeling will come back with time, though!
I can’t WAIT for my Keurig! I’m pretty sure it’s under my parent’s tree 🙂
Seriously, Why is that with the first one the weight fell out quickly. I was probably with in 10 pounds or so of the pre-baby… now #2! I feel like I am still 4 months preggo. I am trying to loose 20-30 pounds over the next 6 months. The hardest part is working out. UGH!!! My husband travels LOT and is out of town for 16 days this time. I feel like my 2y/o pushes just to push since dad is not home. Why do they do this??? Oh well!
Don’t know about others, but I hate to say that I still can’t feel a lot around my c-section scar(s). It was almost 4 years between kids and my youngest is 18 months. Wonder if I’ll ever get full feeling back there!
Also, I LOVE that episode of 90210 as well!
As far as the bigger person or holding a grudge – right now I’m trying to be a bigger person while they hold a grudge – that is a very tiring combination!
Erin, I can relate to your frustration with maintaining your patience. Just take a deep breathe and try being calmer when you realize you are at your wits end. When my boys were babies my husband traveled overseas for 3 to 4 months and did not come home at all!! Plus, I worked full time and took the boys to the nursing home every Saturday to see there grandmother. No time for me so the moral of the story is this to will past and make time for yourself!!!
I love how honest this post is. What is your one item on your Christmas list?!
#1 – my baby is 5 1/2 and I’m still a little numb around my scar (she was my second c, so maybe that has something to do with it). It’s not something I’m really conscious of anymore, though.
#3 & 4 – I slacked of on exercise during the summer, and managed to maintain, but I have GOT to get back into a regular routine. Not just for the weight issue, but because it just makes me feel better and I have more energy!
#13 – I think holding a grudge is harder – because it sucks away your joy. But both are tough!
#14 – Same here in NC!
#15 – Again, same here. A very short list – but I’m an Acts of Service girl, so gifts aren’t really my thing. I’d rather have someone’s time, which seems far harder to give.
I don’t comment often, but do enjoy reading your posts! Travel safely! Merry Christmas!
Erin, I think wanting to watch that 90210 episode makes you cool! 🙂 I have been wanting to watch every Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman Christmas episode lately. As for the baby weight situation, I know how you feel. My newest baby is just a little more than 3 months old and losing the baby weight is so much harder this time. Especially around the holidays. (Confession: Yesterday I ate about fifteen candy cane kisses. It’s an addiction.)
I needed to get rid of baby weight and tried the Dukan diet. I lost weight really quickly…. like 10 lbs in two weeks. We aren’t really following the diet anymore, but I have been able to keep most of the weight off. I liked the diet because you see results so fast and it gave me the strength to keep going for a while. It still wasn’t fun, but it worked.
My son just turned 3 months, and I’m attempting to lose the baby weight during the Christmas holidays. Normally, I use the holidays as an excuse to eat whatever I want and regret it later – totally happened with Thanksgiving this year. Christmas will be different!
I have ZERO feeling between my belly button and my c-section scar. I’m hoping and praying that it will eventually come back – its been 3 months so far ..
ugh i need to lose my baby weight too, so hard. especially right now! i didn’t have a c-section, but i still have numbness between my ribs, where they meet. it started around 20 weeks into my pregnancy – so odd to not be able to feel anything there! the docs kept saying it was because of the stretching, and that it would go away. it has mostly, but not entirely! so weird.
also, i’m obsessed with my keurig too!! at night when i go to bed, i get excited about my morning cup of coffee. is that weird? probably, but that’s one of my favorite times of the day…that first naptime when i get to have my coffee and watch the today show in peace! ha!
LOVED your Erin Condren phone case 🙂 Super cute….thinking of adding one to my Christmas list!! Also, I have had two c-sections and i still have numbness areas…my last one was 13 months ago 🙂 Love your honest post 🙂 Merry Christmas!!
I still can’t feel the skin around my c-section scar, and my son was born four years ago. And sometimes I get this weird tingly pain around it on the inside. The doctor said it was because of adhesions that formed when it was healing. Still, the c-section saved his life and mine so I’m very thankful for modern medicine.
I need to lose about 10 lbs. I get frustrated when people say that I’m fine. I’m not. But just like you I’m wondering why I decided this at Christmas. Still I don’t want 10 to turn in 15 or 20 because I pigged out for the entire month of December.
#15 is what my husband would say about me this year! We just bought a house, so all I want is house-related: shoe racks in the garage, the bedroom painted, new bedding and towels, etc. I’ve been called boring and been asked what I want for Christmas “for fun!” hehehe, Men! They just don’t get it.
My scar area felt numb for months, and I was scared it would never go away. But 11 months out, I can assure you, it does. 🙂
and…AC in December? Sounds dreadful! 😉
I have a hernia repair scar from 18 months ago in probably the same place that a c-section would be and I still can’t feel 100%. It happens.
#4 – I keep telling myself to do better, but then I go and eat some sort of Holiday treat. I’m hanging on to maintaining by a teeny, tiny thread.
#13 – In the short term, being the bigger person takes more effort. In the long term, holding a grudge will be a lot harder on you.
I actually considered signing up for weight watchers a few weeks ago, and then realized how ridiculous I was to do that before the holidays. It’s a never ending battle as a Mom, and I struggle with feelings comfortable in my own skin!
I’m trying to lose baby weight too. I want a healthy lifestyle so I agree with you, holidays or not, there is no better time to be healthy than today.
#13 – Holding a grudge is a lot harder. It hard to feel peaceful inside when you hold a grudge and that robs you of joy and contentment.
#14 and #16, definitely! I have lovely clothes and accessories for cold weather. I love living in SC, except when I look at the “winter” section of my closet and see all of the hats, scarves, sweaters, and boots that I never get to wear. Can you grieve over clothes?
Hello Erin-you do a great job with all of the hats you wear!
I had an baby in April (my 1st) and gained 40 lbs. It took going to the gym every day for five months and a lot of healthy eating to lose the weight. Yuck-it was really no fun at all! Good luck. 🙂
I love writing posts like this…and reading them. I can relate to the numbness…my son is almost eight and sometimes that area still has no feeling. I think it took quite awhile to get any feeling in that area…weird I guess?
It’s been 15 months (almost) since my c-section and I still have no feeling in the area…it kinda creeps me out :/ I also recently started dieting to finally get rid of the last 15 pounds and it is extremely hard during this time of year to diet. Everyday is an uphill battle, but I’m trying to keep my eye on the “end result”.
How funny! I, too, am intent on losing 20 lbs and decided to do so about three days beforebThanksgiving! Four lbs down so far! Woo too!
I was thinking of you today {I know that sounds strange since I’ve never met you} when I was completely lost on delightfulorder.com. Have you seen that one? Seems like something you would like. I am so obsessesed with her family message board! I think I know what my 2012resolution is gonna be…
Im right there with you on wanting to lose the weight and wish it could come before Christmas but I know it wont happen. Wow thats crazy about running the air conditioner because even in Mississippi we have our heater running:)
I think being the bigger person is much harder, but I guess better for you in the long run. While I don’t hold grudges, I don’t necessarily forget very easily. I think some conflicts can be good learning lessons and red flags for how to deal with people in the future and what type of situations I am better off just avoiding all together. I hate when conflict brings that yucky butterfly type feeling in my stomach and I can’t get rid of it. And above all else, I just try to be a grownup, pray about it and then put it past me.
Don’t drink a lot of coffee, but I think I would if I had a Keurig. 🙂
Okay – so I won’t say that you don’t need to lose the weight because you’re right – we’re only seeing the flattering pictures, but I will say that you are beautiful right now, regardless. I will also add that I am one of those people that gets very mad when other ppl look at me and tell me that I’m skinny/etc and roll their eyes when I try to say that I’m unhappy with how I look. Everyone’s “happy weight” is different and it’s really just about the person who is trying to achieve something. So I get what you mean there.
On a very different note – A/C? In December? W T F! Although it’s like 60 degrees here and it’s usually like 20 .
love this – thanks for sharing and for being so honest. makes me feel normal! i pulled out all my christmas movies last night, and ending up netflix-ing gossip girl. what is wrong with me? haha
i’m trying to shed pounds too right now, teamwork! 😉
DUDE! #13 I hear ya!!!! It’s tough. Also, I keep it freezing in my place, so the AC is on and prouuuuuud of it!
You and me both on the weight! I need to lose the last few pounds as well!
Loved your post and how you’re always so honest. I’m sure it’s so tough with two little ones when TC is gone for work. Enjoy your time together now that he’s back . . . and have fun with that new coffee maker; it looks GREAT! 🙂 I thought you were kidding, at first, when you said you had your AC on this week. I’m from Minnesota, and today the high is 15 degrees! What a difference!!! Enjoy your weekend!
I don’t know what’s gone on this year in terms of snow and weather and temperatures. I think it snowed at least once everywhere in the South before it had in west Michigan – and west Michigan is one of the snowiest places in the entire country. We only just got our first snowfall that actually stuck today.
Love the last one. I think it is great that you watched the old 90210 Christmas episode. I watched them all the time on the Soap network.
This is one reason we always tag along on Hubby’s business trips, so we can all be together, haha 🙂 Glad TC is back, I know that is hard! What do you want for Christmas???
Haha, I just caught up on this post – you are so NOT weird! I have been watching 90210 reruns all week long! I love it :o)