Can I just say that? I know that I’m supposed to say that and I know I would be a totally horrible person if I admitted that I didn’t like being a mom, so of course I have to say that I love being a mom, right? (whew–that was a long sentence!) But I do. I love it.
I love this little boy so much and that’s obvious. What’s not to love? He’s so sweet and such a cuddler. And he relies on us for everything. We are everything to him and vice versa. But there’s the less obvious things… the things about being a mom that work with my personality and strengths.
I’m crazy organized. I love calendars and schedules and feel lost without them. So much about being a mom is all about being organized and scheduled. This little guy has the most accurate internal clock. He wakes up every three hours during the day. On. The. Dot. I knew today that he would wake up around 4:45 to eat and then at 4:45 he started stirring and his little eyes popped open. There’s nothing unpredictable about that.
So every three hours, I change him, feed him, burp him, and hold him. Sometimes he falls asleep and lets me put him in his crib or bouncy seat. Other times he falls asleep and won’t let me put him down and really wants me to hold him for that nap. But for the most part, our little three hour routine is the same. We have these wonderful little charts that we fill out for all of his little daily events so we can track the times of everything during the day. I love charts!
I’m not saying that I know every single thing that’s going to happen and that nothing unpredictable happens. There’s plenty of unpredictability in this. Like sometimes I don’t know that he’s going to just have an “off” day and cry for two hours. He has never cried for two hours straight, but we’ll soothe him and then about fifteen minutes later he might start up again. I can’t say that’s my favorite part.
I do love that he already knows that I’m his mama and that I’m the best at soothing him. That’s what moms are for. It’s still hard to believe that I am his mommy and that at this point in his life, more than anyone else, he wants me. (When he’s old enough to stop using me for food, he’ll want his daddy more!)
I don’t want this to sound like this job is a walk in the park. I’ve already mentioned in a previous post that this is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Having this much responsibility is always scary and it is 24/7 responsibility. I can’t ever check it at the door… at least not until we’re ready to leave him with a babysitter for the night. I miss hanging out with our friends. I didn’t get to go see My Sister’s Keeper with my girlfriends because I haven’t healed enough to go sit in a movie theater and I just wasn’t ready to leave Hudson for the night. I miss restaurants and great food. I miss my old pre-pregnancy body. I miss buying clothes that are a size 4 and have accepted that it’s going to be a long time before I can do that again.
But those feelings are always short lived. They come and then they go because I know that the days that I have at home with this tiny boy (not so tiny at 12 pounds, but you get the point) are limited. The movies, the restaurants, and the friends will always be there, but I’ll never get these days back. When we have our future children, I won’t be at home alone with them. Hudson will be there and he’ll demand my attention. So I’ll be sharing my attention with two children. I’m not in any rush to get out and get a baby-free night. I know I will be someday. The day will come when I say to Todd that we absolutely have to get out and do something that adults do, but for now I’m enjoying just being at home.
And here’s your daily fix of sweet Hudson’s face. There are a few more new pictures on the Baby Hudson page. Enjoy!
Oh Erin, he is such a sweet little boy…I can see why you like being home with that face!
Great post 🙂
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Oh my, what a cutie pie!
He’s so stinking cute!!! I can totally tell why you love being his mommy!!! XOXO
Soak it up! Hudson will grow so quickly. You are very fortunate to have such a predictable baby. We took the motto: expect the unexpected. We NEVER knew what or when the next event was going to happen. Shew! Like I said, soak it up. This “little tiny baby” phase will be gone in a second. It’s wonderful to read how much love you all are feeling. You can never give that little angel too much love!
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I love how honest you always are.. Your love for this little boy is so obvious! He is precious Erin!
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This is a very sweet post and you make me look forward to being a Mom someday. He’s a beautiful boy!
You are so blessed! I cannot wait until being a mom is my job! 🙂 He is so adorable! 🙂
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Adorable.
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What a great post!! As a new soon-to-be mom (12 weeks) I absolutely LOVED reading this :).
That is awesome that you are enjoying your time with him! It is hard to have these same moments when you have more children. With my new one I could not sit and hold her for an entire nap, but would love too!
I love that you post such postitive things about Motherhood. I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but I sure have, that it seems like everything on TV, etc portrays motherhood in a negative light. It’s like all the mom’s are frumpy, fat, unhappy, and sloppy. I love that you are proof that you can be a hot mamma, with good style and be happy. It gives the rest of us unsure mothers-to-be-someday a hope that it can be wonderful! 🙂
I think it’s the best job God can give you and you just do the best you can! Of course there will be times when you want to do adult stuff, but these moments will go by so quick I am sure….enjoy every minute! He is just precious!
SUCH a dollface!
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I agree. I love being a mom, too!! I mean love it. I have loved every part of the journey of motherhood. Mine are grown and gone, but every single step of this journey has been wonderful in many ways. And Now I am planning a wedding with my PD. Is it great. We literally can’t get enough phone time!
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I am with ya, girly! Some days, when my husband gets home, Levi and I attack him at the door and say, “let’s go out to eat!” or “let’s go on a walk”, just to get out of the house….but that is normal. I would not trade this day in- day out business for anything because I know it doesn’t last forever. Hudson is just a doll!
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Erin, he is just so beautiful. I can’t stop saying it. I just look at him and my heart melts. You are so right about this only being a once in a lifetime thing…never again will we be at the place we are now – and that is just so special. Enjoy every moment with your little guy!
What a beautiful little boy!
I love hearing new mom’s talk about how much their lives have changed since having a new little one. I know that, one day, I too will experience this same joy!
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Oh he is so sweet! I miss doing adult things too, but they grow so fast and before you know it he’ll be a toddler. So keep cuddling and enjoying him…that little face is so precious!!!
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Aww.. I’m so glad that you’re enjoying being a mom! I don’t have kids, so it’s all a mystery to me, and it’s inspiring to know that it’s so rewarding!
Erin, this was a great post to read. I know you are a great mommy and I can’t wait to join that club 🙂 Pictures of Hudson are absolutely beautiful!
I’d love it if you would do a post on great things to buy for a baby (boys specifically). My sister is pregnant with her first and I’d love to get her some really great gifts!
Such a darling baby boy. I don’t know how you wouldn’t want to be a mom after seeing a face like that… precious.
Such a cutie! Continue to enjoy the time with him. They grow up so fast.
He is such a little cuddlebug. Absolutely adorable!
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He’s adorable! Thanks for such an honest post! & I’m glad to hear you’re enjoying it so much!
He’s a little heart breaker! I love that you are organized with charts, etc, you’re such a good mommy!! I’m a total list maker too (see my post today!), I guess great minds think alike! Being organized is so fun and refreshing (weird huh!).
You’re giving me great encouragement for when I make the plunge into Mommyhood one of these days!
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Well how could anyone not loving mommying that sweet little guy?! He’s precious, Erin, just precious!
what a beautiful post, Erin. Thank you for sharing these thoughts!
Thanks for this post. So much pressure is on new moms to only gush about things. I like your way of leeting us know it’s hard too, but worth it. And, he is a doll!
Well-written, sweet, and honest – your usual. Thank you for this post.
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He is a cutie!
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What a cutie – no wonder you love being a mom. And truly I appreciate your honesty in your posts…it’s refreshing to hear about the things you miss but that you wouldn’t trade it. Thanks for that.
He’s so lucky to have you has his mom 🙂
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