messy

I hope that by now you’ve come to expect random hodge podge posts from me on Thursdays. It’s just the “Blue-Eyed Bride way,” right?

  • I cannot wait for January. My calendar is so full right now and it completely wigs me out not to be able to find weeknights where both TC and I are free. It’s all great stuff that I love, but I’m a homebody. I like to be home.
  • One of the things on my calendar is a photography class for moms– or non-moms. The class is for three weeks and Brooke Turner is teaching it. My friend and I are taking it together. I don’t want to be a professional, but I do want to get the most out of my camera and get great pictures of my children.
  • I need to update you all on my reading list of 2011. Basically, when Hayes was born, I kind of fell off the reading wagon and have been slowly trying to get back on. I’ve read three books since he was born, but I wish I could say I’ve read 5 or 6 books since he was born. It all goes back to not being able to shut off my brain at night.
  • Carbs are bad, mmmkay? Yes, I realize that exposes me as a former South Park watcher because I just referenced Mr. Garrison, but we were all young once, right? I confess: I watched South Park in high school.

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  • But seriously. Carbs are bad. Not only do they make me gain crazy amounts of weight, but they also make me feel so crummy. Or is it crumby? Anyway, carbs make me feel yucky and bad.
  • I’ve got a pretty great review and giveaway coming up from Oreck that lots of you girls will appreciate, I think. But, my gosh, this post will require me making an actual review video and that requires me washing my hair and wearing my skinniest outfit. Pssh.
  • Speaking of hair… I got five inches of hair cut off last week. This was pretty significant. My hair is the shortest it has been in four years. And guess what! I have another appointment tonight to take my hair to a darker color. Maybe dark blonde, maybe light brown. I just don’t know yet. But my hair stylist basically told me that the insane amounts of blonde and insanely long hair were not great anymore and we needed to start over. Gotta tell ya… this made me very sad.
  • If I end up doing this video for the Oreck giveaway, you’ll get to see the hair. But if it looks bad, I’ll just put a bag over my head to do the video.
  • I have to say that I really appreciate all of the sweet words of encouragement and advice in the comments on my post about discipline. I just love blogging and I wish I could sit down and chat with all of you over some coffee.
  • Yesterday, I mentioned that Hayes has been a rolling machine. I got some pretty cute pictures of him yesterday. I laid him down on his little play mat and within five minutes, he had rolled across the rug almost to the other side of the room. I warned him that he’s not allowed to crawl.

  • Speaking of the cute Hazer, look at him in his little hat. Monday morning was pretty chilly and Hayes and I went for a walk. I got this hat for Hudson. I love having two boys and I love that we’re getting double the use out of all of the boy clothes!

  • TC’s small firm purchased and renovated a historic home in town. The renovations have been going on for two years and are finally complete. The house looks amazing and I can only imagine how great it is to get to work somewhere so pretty every day. They hosted an open house last night for all of their friends, family, colleagues and even just the random passerby. It was hopping. But it was lots of fun! I hope I can get some pretty pictures of it to share soon.
  • So, that’s about it. I may have reached a blogging low with my Mr. Garrison reference, but if that’s the worst that it gets, we’re all safe!

Hayes is 5 months old!

My Dear Hayes,

Today, you are 5 months old! Can we just freeze time and stop it right now? I don’t like this growing up business.

Right now, you are just the sweetest little guy. You smile whenever anyone looks at you. You are so easy to please. I know the day will come that you’re shouting “No!” at me and running from me when I’m trying to change your diaper. So right now, I’m really enjoying how easy and happy you are.

This month, you’ve just been rolling all over the place. Right after you turned 4 months, you just started rolling and didn’t stop. And we’ll find you clear across the room from where we laid you down.

You love to be in an upright position. You’ve used your exersaucer a lot this month and really love standing up. You have such strong little legs. You love to sit up in our laps and you will tolerate the Bumbo for a little while. Hudson didn’t like it much, either.

We started you on rice cereal at 4 months and you couldn’t be less interested. You just push the stuff right back out of your month. I have a feeling that when we sweeten it up with bananas and sweet potatoes you’ll change your tune and you’ll love your rice cereal.

You are constantly watching Hudson and always have your eye on him. You also are very interested in the TV. We try not to have it on when you’re in the room because you will not take your eyes off of it. Someday I’ll let you watch it!

This age is just so cute! You have found your toes and constantly are rolled up in this tight little ball as you hold your toes and stretch to get them in your mouth. So funny! I think that 5 months and 6 months are just the cutest little baby stage.

I am excited for you to start sitting up, but I also don’t want to wish the next milestone to come. It all just goes by so quickly.

You’re not a big fan of the car these days, which can make for some really loud trips to take Hudson to school. It’s just because you’re tired, but you eventually do fall asleep. We give you some soothing, sweet music to try to calm you down a bit.

You also struggle a bit between 6:00 and 7:00 p.m., so we let you take a small little cat nap before waking you up for your bath and bed time bottle. It’s tough being a baby!

You are laughing more and more and it’s such a funny, infectious sound! I want to make you laugh all the time now. You absolutely love your monkey lovie! Hudson loves his, too, and you treat yours like your pacifier. You reach for your lovie and just push it against your face and smile. You’re always talking to it.

You’ve also started sucking your thumb really consistently. You can find it very quickly when you get upset. Sweet little boy!

You’re still sleeping from 7:30 p.m. until 8:00 a.m. We get you up, give you a bottle, you play for a little while and then you’re ready to go back to sleep around 9:00 a.m.

We love you so much and I just can’t wait to see who you become each day!

Love,

Mommy

5 month Stats

Weight: 18 lbs (you are consistently gaining 2 pounds per month)

Height: 28 inches (you’re so tall!)

Clothes: some 6 month still fits, mostly 6-9 months and 9 months

Diaper: still wearing size 2. You could wear a size 3, but I want to finish up our huge box of size 2. (Pampers Swaddlers)

Eating: every 3 hours, 8 ounces per bottle


battles and wars

Oh, life as a mom of a two-year-old. Is there anything more humbling? This post is not going to be pretty.

Lately, I’ve just been feeling like I’m failing. I know that a lot of moms feel this way. Or, gosh, I just hope a lot of moms feel this way. Not because I want every mom to struggle, but because I want to know that I’m not alone.

We have a very defiant, spirited, loving, intelligent, curious and strong-willed toddler on our hands. He is almost 28 months (not quite 2 1/2) and he knows a lot and asserts himself. He loves his mommy, I know that. And boy! Do I ever love him? But he also frustrates the fire out of me.

I feel like I am  constantly walking this fine line between “together mommy” and “scary mommy.” He is constantly being corrected, redirected and disciplined. I don’t like popping him on the hand and I don’t like having to speak sternly to him. But both have to be done. Time-outs have to be used. But it’s when I reach that point of “scary mommy” and my voice escalates and I’m angry.

I thought to myself this morning, “Poor guy! He isn’t doing the “right” thing, but I can’t imagine being corrected–constantly, all day every day.”

The hard part is that I know that he knows what he’s doing. I know that he’s doing things just because I said not to do them. I know that he’s testing me. He’s smart.

Our daily battles are over silly things like when he climbs on, and breaks, the exersaucer. Or when he snatches a toy from his baby brother. Or when he throws his food from the high chair. Small things.

But my biggest fear is that one of two things will happen. He will either (a) remember me as the mom who constantly scolded him and turned into “scary mommy” or (b) win. I don’t want either of those things. I don’t want him to be in charge and I don’t want to lose myself to my impatience and anger.

My love for both of my children is overwhelming. It’s true that we correct them because we love them and want to protect them from hurting themselves, hurting others or getting into a habit of behaving badly.

This road between 2 and 3 years old is an exhausting road. I am flat out tired. I have two kids who sleep great and I actually sleep great. But I am so tired at the end of every day and I’m still tired when I wake up in the mornings.

I know that no one expects me to be a perfect mommy. I attended the first session of our church’s Mom’s Bible Study this morning and heard a very great point that my husband, my children nor God  expect me to be perfect. And that also means that my children will not be perfect.

I know that just like everything with parenting, this is a season. But it’s a long season. It feels especially long when you are constantly questioning everything you’re doing. I do trust my instincts, but I also know that I get one chance. I know that turning to God in prayer is my biggest hope. And I’m also turning to Dr. Dobson. But I know that I know this precious boy better than anyone and that prayer can help me know how to parent him and know how to be a calm, loving and patient mommy.

I need to appreciate the teaching moments where I can teach him and where I can learn.

I’ve never been more humbled than I am during this time in my life. I love this precious boy for all that he is and all that he dreams of being. I want to protect him and create a safe home for him.

This struggle with obedience is tough. I want to embrace his strengths and work with him where he is challenged. He may win lots of little battles, but I am determined to win this war.

2 Peter 1:3

His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him

who called us by his own glory and goodness.


go visit me today at Living Like the Kings

The wonderful Kat asked me to write a guest post for her blog, Living Like the Kings. If you’re not already reading her blog you need to add it to your reader!

I wrote about finding the work/life balance as a stay-at-home mom when your work is your life.

Check it out here

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